There are many things about school that i truly don't understand. I can deal with the fact that most of the assignments are just for the teacher to give us something do to, but lack any educational value. I can deal with the fact that a lot of teachers have silly rules which aren't always consistant. But the thing that bothers me the most really has nothing to do with the teachers. It has to do with me, as a student. An example of this problem can be with my recent Comp 1020 paper i just recieved back. The paper was to be written about Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.'s "Letter from Birmingham Jail." I wrote my first draft at home, without the exceptation sheet and i felt pretty good about. When i came back to school Monday though, i found out that i had written the paper all wrong. Because i felt like i had already put all my good thought and work into the first draft, i didn't care too much about the final draft. I turned in the paper, thinking that my teacher would give me the worse grade ever. On the next Monday my comp teacher handed back the papers, and low and behold i had gotten my first A on a comp paper. I just don't understand this trumatic cycle that i must put myself through in order to get a good grade. I am just glad though, that things like God and salvation are issues i can be sure of. I don't have to put myself through torture so that when i finally get the end result i can rejoice because i didn't fail. God let's us know that we have His grace and that it is a gift that can never be taken away.

I am a senior in high school, as many of you already know either because you read my profile or you know me in person. Because i got a good enough score on my ACT, had a B or above in Junior English and live in the state of Tennessee, i was able to take a duel enrollment course from a near by college. The classes that i took and are taking are Comp 1010 and Comp 1020. In Comp 1020 we started doing reseach papers. Our teacher, Mrs. Black often told us that we can not write about anything that we do not feel passionately about. Well Mrs. Black, i truly beg to differ. For me, what topic i chose is not based on whether or not i feel this is something that i have a firm stand on. It is more the fact that i couldn't think of anything else to write about and this idea is the first that came into my mind. Take my first argumentive topic i chose. After looking on the net for something that would at least be remotely interesting, i found an article talking about marijuana being used for medical purposes. Medical marijuana is not an issue that i feel passonatly about nor is it a topic i know a lot about. I simply chose it because there seemed to be a lot of information on it. What i am trying to say here that for me school has now become a task that i do to get done. There was a point in time when i would get excited about school assignments and not put projects off because the thrill of doing them was so overwhelming. I guess that is what being a Senior is all about-pretending. Pretending, that yes you actually care about school, all the while dreaming of the hot guys (or girls whatever applies to you) and the freedom you will have in college. Do not get me wrong, high school has been fun and i have made memories here that i know i will keep for a lifetime, but for right now i would like to move on.   

I have found that since the beginning of this new year, 2005, every time I go home I either have to write a comp paper or leave early for something that I am required to be at. This weekend both happened to be the case, I had to write a cuasal claim on how bullying causes negative effects on children and today I have to leave at 10 to be at school by 12 to help rake leaves. I am trying to have a good attitude about all how this, but it is extremely hard. School is always so busy and I feel like I never get time to just hang out and relax without thinking of the next paper I need to write or school function that I need to help plan. I guess this is all just because I am a Senior and want to leave high school, but I don't think that school is helping much. Some would call me bitter towards today and raking leaves, and the truth is yes, I am bitter. But I am trying to get over this and think of some reason why it is good that I am raking leaves on a Sunday at 12 when I could be doing other things like sleeping.

Reasons why Raking Leaves is Good

1. It is raising money for our class trip that we need to do fun things like snorkling.

2. It is good exercise

3. I get to rake with all of my friends which could prove to be interesting and funny

4. It's a very pretty day and the because it didn't rain at all the leaves will be fairly dry

5. If we get down early from raking then I can work on my comp paper or even sleep.

Despite the fact that I just made this list, I still don't feel much better.